The smile you didn't see

 I've started a few blogs in the past, but I really want to start chronicling the adventures of my son and I.  I decided to start this first post with a perspective shift.  I remember the times I got in trouble as a kid, and there were a few, and my father scolded me.  That tone in his voice and the look on his face immediately made me straighten up.  Now I find myself using that same voice and expression with my son.  Here's what I've noticed.

There is a smile, one he doesn't see.  When its all I can do to hold back laughter while chastising you for running through the house with thick blankets on your head as you crash into walls and furniture going "ooooooo, I'm a ghost".  You didn't see the smile that followed.  

When you weren't looking at Mommy or I and were just building the most elaborate world in the floor with your legos and leaping great bounds over the trains we had set in the floor and you were so proud of yourself because of what a good jump it was, you might not have seen the smile on my face of just the utter joy it brought me to watch you play.

When I'm in my office and I hear you asking me if Jedi returns is where Darth Vader dies and if you can watch that one and how well you know your Star Wars shows.  You didn't see that smile.  

There were so many little moments that are just mine because of the way you acted or the things  you said and did that brought me joy that  you didn't see, but I was so proud of you and so amused by you.  You literally caused my heart to burst sometimes. 

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So I'm going to try to capture some of those moments in this blog.  Not a place to come for advice because Lord knows I have no clue what I'm doing.  However, if you relate to these stories feel free to share your comments and chat with me.  It's a journey and a journey taken with a friend is twice as enjoyable.